The Once and Future King
Chapter XII
It was dark in Gawaine’s tent, except for a flat pan of charcoal which lit it dimly from below. The tent was poor and shabby, compared with the splendid pavilions of the English knights. On the hard bed there were a few plaids in the Orkney tartan, and the only ornaments were a leaden bottle of holy water which he was taking for medicine, marked ‘Optimus egrorum, medicus fit Thomas bonorum,’ together with a withered bunch of heather, tied to the pole. These were his household gods.
Gawaine was stretched face downwards on the plaids. The man was crying slowly and hopelessly, while Arthur, sitting beside him, stroked his hand. It was his wound that had weakened him, or else he would not have cried. The old King was trying to soothe him.
‘Don’t grieve about it, Gawaine,’ he said. ‘You did the best you could.’
‘It is the second time he has spared me, the second time in a month.’
‘Lancelot was always strong. The years don’t seem to touch him.’
‘Why canna he kill me, then? I begged him to have done with it. I told him that if he left me to be patched, I should but fight him fresh when I was mended.
‘And, God!’ he added tearfully, ‘my head sore aches!’
Arthur said with a sigh: ‘It was because you got both blows on the same place. That was bad luck.’
‘It makes a body feel shamed.’
‘Don’t think about it, then. Lie quiet, or you will get feverish again, and will not be able to fight for a long time. Then what would we do? We should be quite lost without our Gawaine to lead the battle for us.’
‘I am but a man of straw, Arthur,’ he said. ‘I am but an ill-passioned bully, and I canna kill him.’
‘People who say they are no good are always the good ones. Let’s change the subject and talk about something pleasant. England, for instance.’
‘We shall never see England again.’
‘Nonsense! We shall see England just in the spring. Why, it is almost spring now. The snowdrops will have been out for ages, and I dare say Guenever will have some crocuses already. She is good at gardening.’
‘Guenever was kind to me.’
‘My Gwen is kind to everybody,’ said the old man proudly. ‘I wonder what she is doing now? Going to bed, I suppose. Or perhaps she is sitting up late, having a talk with your brother. It would be nice to think that they were talking about us at this minute, perhaps saying admiring things about Gawaine’s prowess: or Gwen might be saying that she wished her old man would come home.’
Gawaine moved restlessly on the bed.
‘I have a mind to gang name,’ he muttered. ‘If Lancelot hates clan Orkney, as Mordred says, why does he spare the laird of it? Maybe he did kill Gareth by mischance.’
‘I am sure it was mischance. If you will help to end the war, we may be able to stop it fairly soon. It is your justice we are said to be fighting for now, you know. I and the others who want to fight would have to bow to that eventually. If you are content to make it up there is nobody who will be more happy than I will be.’
‘Aye, but I swore to fight him to the death.’
‘You have had two good tries.’
‘And taken a braw thrashing ilka time,’ he said bitterly. ‘He could have made the war end twice. Nay, it would look like cowardice to compound.’
‘The bravest people are the ones who don’t mind looking like cowards. Remember how Lancelot hid in Joyous Gard for months, while we sang songs outside.’
‘I canna forget our Gareth’s face.’
‘It was sad for all of us.’
Gawaine was trying to think, an effort not made easy to him by practice. On this dark evening it was twice as difficult, because of his head. Since the time when Galahad gave him concussion in the quest for the Grail he had been liable to headaches, and now, by a curious accident, Lancelot had given him two blows in separate duels, on the same place.
‘What for should I give in,’ he asked, ‘because he beats me? It would be fleeing him to give in now. If I could fell him in a third engagement, maybe. And spare the chiel … It would be even.’
‘The fields,’ said the King thoughtfully, ‘will soon be kingcups and daisies in England. It would be nice to win a peace.’
‘Aye, and the spring hawking.’
The figure twisted in its dim bed with a movement of remembrance, but froze as the pain shot through its skull.
‘Almighty, but my head throbs sorely.’
‘Would you like me to get a wet cloth for it, or a drink of milk?’
‘Nay. Let it bide. It willna help.’
‘Poor Gawaine. I hope nothing is broken in it.’
‘The thing that is broken is my spirit. Let us talk of other matters.’
The King said doubtfully: ‘I ought not to talk too much. I think I ought to go away, and leave you to sleep.’
‘Ach, stay. Dinna leave me by masel’. It irks me when I am by my lone.’
‘The doctor said …’
‘Tae hell wi’ the doctor. Bide a wee while. Hold my hand. Tell me of England.’
‘There ought to be a post tomorrow, and then we shall be able to read about England. We shall have the latest news, and there will be a letter from young Mordred, and perhaps my Gwen will write to me.’
‘Mordred’s letters are cold cheer, some way.’
Arthur hastened to defend him.
‘That is only because he has an unhappy life. You may depend upon it there is a regular fire of love inside him. Gwen used to say that all his warmth was for his mother.’
‘He was fond of our mother.’
‘Perhaps he was in love with her.’
‘That would account for why he was jealous of ye.’
Gawaine was surprised at this discovery, which had struck him for the first time.
‘Perhaps that was why he allowed Sir Agravaine to kill her, when she had that affair with Lamorak … Poor boy, he has been ill-treated by the world.’
‘He is the only brother I have left.’
‘I know. Lancelot’s was a tragic accident.’
The laird of Lothian moved his bandage feverishly.
‘But it canna have been accident. I could jalouse it had they worn their helms, but they were bonnetless. He must have known them.’
‘We have talked this over often.’
‘Aye, it is vain.’
The old man asked with tragic diffidence: ‘You don’t think you could bring yourself to forgive him, Gawaine, however it happened? I am not seeking to abandon duty, but if justice could be tempered with mercy …’
‘I will temper it when I hold him at my mercy, not before.’
‘Well, it is for you to say. Here comes the doctor to tell me I have stayed too long. Come in, doctor, come in.’
But it was the Bishop of Rochester who entered in a bustle, carrying packets and an iron lantern.
‘It is you, Rochester. We thought you were the doctor.’
‘Good evening, sir. And good evening to you, Sir Gawaine.’
‘Good evening.’
‘How is the head today?’
‘It grows better, thank you, my lord.’
‘Well, that is excellent news.
‘And I,’ he added archly, ‘have brought some good news too. The post has come in early!’
‘Letters!’
‘One for you,’ he handed it to the King, ‘a long one.’
‘Is there aught for me?’ asked Gawaine.
‘Nothing, I am afraid, this week. You will have better luck next time.’
Arthur took the letters to the lantern and broke the seal.
‘You will excuse me if I read.’
‘Of course. We cannot stand on ceremony with the news from England. Dear me, I never thought I should become a palmer at my time of life, Sir Gawaine, and have to gallivant in foreign parts …’
The bishop’s prattle died away. Arthur had made no movement. He had turned neither red nor pale, nor dropped the letter, nor stared in front of him. He was reading quietly. But Rochester stopped speaking, and Gawaine raised himself on one elbow. They watched him reading, open-mouthed.
‘Sir …’
‘Nothing,’ he said, brushing them away with his hand. ‘Excuse me. The news.’
‘I hope …’
‘Let me finish, please. Talk to Sir Gawaine.’
Gawaine asked: ‘Is there ill tidings … May I see?’
‘No, please a minute.’
‘Mordred?’
‘No. It is nothing. The doctor says … My lord, I would like to speak to you outside.’
Gawaine began to heave himself into a sitting position.
‘I will be told.’
‘There is nothing to be upset about. Lie down. We will come back.’
‘If ye go without telling me, I shall follow.’
‘It is nothing. You will hurt your head.’
‘What is it?’
‘Nothing. It is only …’
‘Well?’
‘Well, Gawaine,’ he said, suddenly collapsing, ‘it seems that Mordred has proclaimed himself the King of England, under this New Order of his.’
‘Mordred!’
‘He has told his Thrashers that we are dead, you see,’ Arthur explained, as if it were some sort of problem, ‘and …’
‘Mordred says we are dead?’
‘He says we are dead, and …’
But he could not frame it.
‘And what?’
‘He is going to marry Gwen.’
There was a moment of dead silence, while the bishop’s hand strayed vaguely to his pectoral cross and Gawaine’s clenched itself in the bedclothes. Then they both spoke at once.
‘The Lord Protector …’
‘It canna be true. It will be a jest. My brother wouldna do a thing like yon.’
‘Unfortunately it is true,’ said the King patiently. ‘This is a letter from Guenever. Heaven knows how she managed to get it through.’
‘The Queen’s age …’
‘After the proclamation, he proposed to her. She had nobody to help. The Queen accepted his proposal.’
‘Accepted Mordred!’
Gawaine had managed to swing his legs over the side of the bed.
‘Uncle, give me the letter.’
He took it out of the limp hand, which yielded it automatically, and began to read, tilting the page to the light.
Arthur continued to explain.
‘The Queen accepted Mordred’s proposal, and asked for permission to go to London for her trousseau. When she was in London with the few who remained faithful, she threw herself suddenly into the Tower and barred the gates. Thank God, it is a strong fort. They are besieging her in the Tower of London now, and Mordred is using guns.’
Rochester asked in bewilderment: ‘Guns?’
‘He is using the cannon.’
It was too much for the old priest’s intellect.
‘It is incredible!’ he said. ‘To say we are dead, and to marry the Queen! And then to use cannon …’
‘Now that the guns have come,’ said Arthur, ‘the Table is over. We must hurry home.’
‘To use cannons against men!’
‘We must go to the rescue immediately, my lord. Gawaine can stay here …’
But the Laird of Orkney was out of bed.
‘Gawaine, what are you doing? Lie down at once.’
‘I am coming with ye.’
‘Gawaine, lie down. Rochester, help me with him.’
‘My last brother has broken his fealty.’
‘Gawaine …’
‘And Lancelot … Ah God, my head!’
He stood swaying in the dim light, holding the bandage with both hands, while his shadow moved grotesquely round the tent pole.