Half the World (Shattered Sea, Book 2)

COWARDICE

They knelt in a line. Three of the young lads and Brand. Two had pointed spears at an old farmer. One had cried as he set fire to some houses. The last had let the only slave they took go.

Some warriors.

Yet here they were, with the fighting men of Gettland gathered about them in an armed and armoured crowd, ready to welcome them into their brotherhood. Ready to have them at their shoulders when they met Grom-gil-Gorm and his Vanstermen at the appointed place. Ready to carry them into the iron embrace of Mother War.

King Uthil had changed a lot in the year since Brand saw him last, and not for the better. His skin had turned the same iron-grey as his hair, rheumy eyes sunken in dark shadows. He seemed shrivelled in his chair, scarcely moving, as though the King’s Circle on his brow was a crushing weight, hands trembling as he hugged his naked sword.

Father Yarvi perched on a stool at the king’s side, Queen Laithlin sat bolt upright on the other, shoulders back, fists clenched on her knees, sweeping the crowd with her pale stare as though she could make up for her husband’s weakness with her strength.

Thorn stood at the queen’s shoulder, pointed chin up and with a challenge in her eyes, arms folded and the elf-bangle burning a chill white on her wrist. She looked like something from the songs, a Chosen Shield from her toes to her half-shaved scalp. Brand could hardly believe he’d clambered out of her bed an hour before. At least he had one thing to feel pleased about.

The king looked slowly down the line of boys to Brand, and cleared his throat.

‘You are young,’ he said, voice so crackly quiet it could hardly be heard over the wind flapping the tent cloth. ‘But Master Hunnan has judged you worthy, and Gettland is beset by enemies.’ He raised himself a little in his seat, a glimpse of the man whose speech Brand had thrilled to on the beach before Thorlby. ‘We march to Amon’s Tooth to meet the Vanstermen in battle, and we need every shield!’ He was caught by a coughing fit, and croaked out, ‘Steel is the answer.’ Then slumped back in his chair, Father Yarvi leaning close to whisper in his ear.

Master Hunnan stepped up with sword in hand and frown on face to stand over the first of the boys. ‘Do you swear loyalty to Gettland?’

The lad swallowed. ‘I do.’

‘Do you swear to serve your king?’

‘I do.’

‘Do you swear to stand by your shoulder-man in the shield-wall, and obey your betters?’

‘I do.’

‘Then rise a warrior of Gettland!’

The boy did, looking a lot more scared than happy, and all about him men drummed fists on their chests, clattered axe-hafts on shield-rims, thumped boots on the earth in approval.

It took a moment’s struggle for Brand to swallow. Soon it would be his turn. Should have been the proudest day of his life. But as he thought of the ashes of Halleby and Rissentoft, of the old man bleeding on his doorstep and the woman with the rope around her neck, pride wasn’t his first feeling.

The crowd cheered as the second boy said his third ‘I do’ and the man behind jerked him to his feet like a fish from a pond.

Brand caught Thorn’s eye, and her mouth curled up in the faintest smile. He would’ve smiled back, if he hadn’t been churning with doubts. Do good, his mother told him with her dying breath. What good had they done at Rissentoft the other night?

The third lad had tears in his eyes again as he swore his oaths, but the warriors took them for tears of pride and gave him the loudest cheer so far, the clashing of weapons cutting at Brand’s jangling nerves.

Hunnan worked his jaw, frown hardening even further as Brand stepped up to him, and the men fell silent.

‘Do you swear loyalty to Gettland?’

‘I do,’ croaked Brand, his mouth dry.

‘Do you swear to serve your king?’

‘I do,’ croaked Brand, heart thumping in his ears.

‘Do you swear to stand by your shoulder-man in the shield-wall, and obey your betters?’

Brand opened his mouth, but the words didn’t come. Silence stretched out. Smiles faded. He felt every eye on him. There was a faint scraping of metal as warriors stirred uneasily.

‘Well?’ snapped Hunnan.

‘No.’

The silence stretched for a pregnant moment longer, like the silence before a cloudburst, then a disbelieving mutter started up.

Hunnan stared down, astonished. ‘What?’

‘Stand, boy,’ came the king’s rasping voice, the noise growing angrier as Brand got to his feet. ‘I never heard of such a thing before. Why will you not swear your oath?’

‘Because he’s a coward,’ snarled Hunnan.

More muttering, angrier still. The boy beside Brand stared at him with wide eyes. Rulf bunched his fists. Father Yarvi raised one brow. Thorn took a step forward, her mouth twisting, but the queen stopped her with a raised finger.

With a wincing effort the king held up one bony hand, eyes on Brand, and his warriors fell silent. ‘I asked him.’

‘Maybe I am a coward,’ said Brand, though his voice sounded out a good deal more boldly than usual. ‘Master Hunnan killed an old farmer the other night, and I was too coward to stop him. We burned a village and I was too coward to speak out. He set three students on one as a test and I was too coward to stand for the one. Standing for the weak against the strong. Isn’t that what a warrior should be?’

‘Damn you for a liar!’ snarled Hunnan. ‘I’ll—’

‘You’ll hold your tongue!’ growled Father Yarvi, ‘until the king asks you to speak.’

The master-at-arms’ frown was murderous, but Brand didn’t care. He felt as if a load was lifted. As if he’d had the South Wind’s weight across his shoulders again, and suddenly let go. He felt, for the first time since he left Thorlby, as if he was standing in the light.

‘You want someone with no fear?’ He stuck his arm straight out. ‘There she stands. Thorn Bathu, the queen’s Chosen Shield. In the First of Cities she fought seven men alone and saved the Empress of the South. They’re singing songs of it all about the Shattered Sea! And yet you’d rather take boys who scarcely know which end of a spear to hold. What mad pride is that? What foolishness? I used to dream of being a warrior. To serve you, my king. To fight for my country. To have a loyal brother always at my shoulder.’ He looked Hunnan right in the eye, and shrugged. ‘If this is what it means to be a warrior, I want no part of it.’

The anger burst out once again, and once again King Uthil had to lift a trembling hand for silence.

‘Some here might not care for your words,’ he said. ‘But they are not the words of a coward. Some men are touched by Father Peace.’ His tired eyes swivelled towards Yarvi, and then towards Thorn, and one eyelid began to flicker. ‘Just as some women are touched by Mother War. Death … waits for us all.’ The hand upon his sword was suddenly trembling worse than ever. ‘We each must find our own … right path … to her door …’

He keeled forward. Father Yarvi darted from his stool and caught the king before he fell, his sword sliding from his lap and clattering in the mud. Between him and Rulf they lifted Uthil from his chair and walked him back into his tent. His head lolled. His feet dragged in the dirt. The muttering came up stronger than ever, but shocked and fearful now.

‘The king dropped his sword.’

‘An ill omen.’

‘Poor weaponluck.’

‘The favour of the gods is elsewhere …’

‘Calm yourselves!’ Queen Laithlin stood, sweeping the crowd with icy scorn. ‘Are these warriors of Gettland or prattling slave-girls?’ She had taken the king’s sword from the dirt, hugging it to her chest as he had done, but there was no quiver to her hand, no dampness in her eye, no weakness in her voice. ‘This is no time for doubts! The Breaker of Swords waits for us at Amon’s Tooth! The king may not be with us, but we know what he would say.’

‘Steel is the answer!’ barked Thorn, the elf-bangle flaring hot red.

‘Steel!’ roared Master Hunnan, holding high his sword, and metal hissed as more blades were drawn, and stabbed towards the sky.

‘Steel! Steel! Steel!’ came the chant from a hundred throats.

Brand was the only one who stayed silent. He’d always thought doing good meant fighting alongside his brothers. But maybe doing good meant not fighting at all.