Half the World (Shattered Sea, Book 2)

NOT LIKE THE SONGS

‘They’re running.’ The wind whipped Thorn’s hair about her bloody face as she stared after the Uzhaks, the riders, and the horses without their riders, dwindling specks now far out across the ocean of grass.

‘Can’t say I blame ’em,’ muttered Brand, watching Skifr wrap her coat tight about herself and slump again crosslegged, gripping at the holy signs around her neck, glowering at the embers of the fire.

‘We fought well,’ said Rulf, though his voice sounded hollow.

‘Hands of iron.’ Fror nodded as he wiped the paint from his face with a wetted rag. ‘We won a victory to sing of.’

‘We won, anyway.’ Father Yarvi picked up one of the bits of metal Skifr had left in the grass and turned it this way and that so it twinkled in the sun. A hollow thing, still with a little smoke curling out. How could that reach across the plain and kill a man?

Safrit was frowning towards Skifr as she wiped her bloody hands clean. ‘We won using some black arts.’

‘We won.’ Father Yarvi shrugged. ‘Of the two endings to a fight that is the better. Let Father Peace shed tears over the methods. Mother War smiles upon results.’

‘What about Odda?’ Brand muttered. The little man had seemed invincible, but he was gone through the Last Door. No more jokes.

‘He would not have survived the arrow,’ said Yarvi. ‘It was him or all of us.’

‘A ruthless arithmetic,’ said Safrit, her mouth set in a hard line.

The minister did not look at her. ‘Such are the sums a leader must solve.’

‘What if this sorcery brings a curse on us?’ asked Dosduvoi. ‘What if we risk a second Breaking of God? What if we—’

‘We won.’ Father Yarvi’s voice was as cold and sharp as drawn steel, and he curled the fingers of his good hand about that little piece of elf-metal and made a white-knuckled fist of it. ‘Thank whatever god you believe in for your life, if you know how. Then help with the bodies.’

Dosduvoi shut his mouth and walked away, shaking his great head.

Brand prised open his sore fingers and let his shield drop, Rin’s painted dragon all hacked and gouged, the rim bright with new scratches, the bandages on his palm blood-spotted. Gods, he was bruised and grazed and aching all over. He hardly had the strength to stand, let alone to quibble over the good thing to have done. The more he saw, the less sure he was of what the good thing might be. There was a burning at his neck, wet when he touched it. A scratch there, from friend or enemy he couldn’t say. The wounds hurt just as much whoever dealt them.

‘Lay them out with dignity,’ Father Yarvi was saying, ‘and fell these trees for pyres.’

‘Those bastards too?’ Koll pointed to the Horse People scattered torn and bloody down the slope, several of the crew picking over their bodies for anything worth the taking.

‘Them too.’

‘Why give them a proper burning?’

Rulf caught the lad by the arm. ‘Because if we beat beggars here, we’re no better than beggars. If we beat great men, we’re greater still.’

‘Are you hurt?’ asked Safrit.

Brand stared at her as if she was speaking a foreign tongue. ‘What?’

‘Sit down.’

That wasn’t hard to do. He was so weak at the knees he was near falling already. He stared across the windswept hilltop as the crew put aside their weapons and started dragging the corpses into lines, others setting about the stunted trees with axes to make a great pyre. Safrit leaned over him, probing at the cut on his neck with strong fingers.

‘It’s not deep. There’s plenty worse off.’

‘I killed a man,’ he muttered, to no one in particular. Maybe it sounded like a boast, but it surely wasn’t meant to be. ‘A man with his own hopes, and his own worries, and his own family.’

Rulf squatted beside him, scratching at his grey beard. ‘Killing a man is nowhere near so light a matter as the bards would have you believe.’ He put a fatherly hand on Brand’s shoulder. ‘You did well today.’

‘Did I?’ muttered Brand, rubbing his bandaged hands together. ‘Keep wondering who he was, and what brought him here, and why we had to fight. Keep seeing his face.’

‘Chances are you’ll be seeing it till you step through the Last Door yourself. That’s the price of the shield-wall, Brand.’ And Rulf held out a sword to him. A good sword, with silver on the hilt and a scabbard stained from long use. ‘Odda’s. But he’d have wanted you to take it. A proper warrior should have a proper blade.’

Brand had dreamed of having his own sword; now looking at it made him feel sick. ‘I’m no warrior.’

‘Yes y’are.’

‘A warrior doesn’t fear.’

‘A fool doesn’t fear. A warrior stands in spite of his fear. You stood.’

Brand plucked at his damp trousers. ‘I stood and pissed myself.’

‘You won’t be the only one.’

‘The hero never pisses himself in the songs.’

‘Aye, well.’ Rulf gave his shoulder a parting squeeze, and stood. ‘That’s why those are songs, and this is life.’

Mother Sun was high over the steppe when they set off, the pyre-smoke slowly rising. Though the blood had drained from the sky and left only a clear and beautiful blue, it was still crusted dark under Brand’s fingernails, and in his bandages, and at his throbbing neck. It was still a red day. He felt every day he lived would be a red day now.

Four oars lay still beside the mast, the ashes of the men who’d pulled them already whirling out across the plains. Skifr sat brooding among the cargo, hood drawn up, the nearest oarsmen all shuffled as far from her as they could get without falling out of the boat.

Brand glanced across at Thorn as they settled to rowing and she looked back, her face as pale and hollow as Odda’s had been when they stacked the wood around him. He tried to smile, but his mouth wouldn’t find the shape of it.

They’d fought in the wall. They’d stood at the Last Door. They’d faced Death and left a harvest for the Mother of Crows. Whatever Master Hunnan might’ve said, they were both warriors now.

But it wasn’t like the songs.